One of my favorite things to say (ok, to myself) is “Kiss the Frog.” This is also in my email address and people always ask me where in the world did I come up with that and what does it mean? Well, really, up until now only a few people know where I came up with the idea.
See, I was an awkward little girl. I was horribly bow-legged, poorly coordinated and I could never sit still. I wore the huge hideous corrective shoes during the day and braces on my legs at night. As if that didn’t have enough of an effect on my self esteem, my cousins came up with a lovely nickname for me—Froglegs. That nickname haunted me for so many years until only a few years ago, I learned to truly embrace it.
I heard someone say once that childhood is what you spend the rest of your life trying to get over…and ain’t that the truth! Even though my legs became “perfect,” somehow that awkward and self conscious little girl still became an awkward and self conscious woman. My major imperfection as a child led me to a life striving for perfection. I used to try to be great everything and, needless to say, I’ve fallen sooo short of perfection. My pursuit of constant overachieving had only led me to suffer from what I began to call chronic inadequacy. It has taken me almost 30 years to realize and come to terms with the fact that I just can’t and won’ t be great at everything. So each day, I just try to be the best person I can be.
So, just who am I? Well, to be honest, I am many things. I’m a daughter, a wife, a friend, a big and little sister, an aunt, a career woman, a wannabe soap maker and almost 3 years ago – I became a MOTHER. See, many things. That last title, however, is the toughest one. Like all parents, I want to give my little girl the world. I want her to have everything she needs and most of what she wants, but of course, that’s not always easy, especially when you’re trying to balance everything else. Is there a such thing as a perfect woman/parent/wife/etc? If so, maybe she could sprinkle some of her fairy dust on me. Until then, I am just going to be me and continue to embrace the imperfect being God has created me to be.
So, now I just take it all one day at a time as I continue on my never ending quest for love and peace in my home, my mind, and maybe someday, the world . I’ll be sharing this experience along with other experiences in this blog and hopefully, other imperfect frogs out there will find it useful. Enjoy!